I’m so fucking tired of ignorant people. EVERYDAY I have to deal with this shit. Everytime I go to my german history class suicide always seems to come up, and it’s all just a big joke to them! A JOKE! Today the prof put a written piece that some guy did about the coffee house, the whole thing was suppose to be about how everyone can go to the coffee house, or whatever. One of the lines were “If you feel like committing suicide – Coffeehouse!” I almost cried. Everyone else laughed. It’s fucking hilarious, isn’t it? Yes, laugh at my dead sister, laugh at Kim’s dead brother, laugh at all of the victims that the illness killed! And yes, it is an illness, IT IS NOT A CHOICE TO DIE BY SUICIDE. And it is definitely not a JOKE! If that had said “If you have cancer – Coffeehouse!” there wouldn’t have been a reaction? Why is that any different? Let’s all laugh at all of the people who have cancer! It’s hilarious, isn’t it? No, it’s not. Suicide is exactly like having cancer. It is an ILLNESS. Victims don’t ASK FOR IT. And it is UNCONTROLLABLE! It is not a CRIME. Update your vocabulary. You “commit” homicide, you “commit” genocide, you “commit” an act of violence, you do NOT “commit” suicide. You die from suicide. Do you “commit” cancer? No, you die from it. Get out of the stone age people. You are only PROMOTING the negative stigma and because of that people with this illness are dying. They refuse to seek help because people will think they are crazy, or a criminal. My sister was certainly NOT A CRIMINAL! Kim’s brother was NOT A CRIMINAL! Ginny’s son was NOT A CRIMINAL! Open your eyes and just stop using that out of date phrase so carelessly. Everytime I hear it I literally want to jump off a building, it’s the most offensive thing you can say to me. I’ve been through enough in my life. I lost my family, I lost my friends, I lost myself, I lost my home. I’ve been through hell, yet I get up in the morning thinking that maybe people have changed, maybe they aren’t asses anymore. I work on suicide support and prevention constantly, I help people in crisis, I’ve talked TONS of people out of suicide. Suicide prevention has become my life, if you’re laughing at the concept of suicide then you’re laughing at me. If you think it’s funny then I cant respect you, or stay your friend. I’m so tired of ignorant people.

I’m going to have to quit school or something, because I certainly cant handle this ignorance anymore.

What is wrong with you people?